32 weeks and counting down...

We are almost done and its starting to become bitter sweet for Kevin and me.  I know that this is going to be our last baby and I really don't want to have more children after this little one but the fact that I am never going to feel one of my children in my belly or go through the first year of their lives again makes me sad.  My boys mean the world to me and I am getting so excited to find out next week what has been making my back hurt. 

I am starting to come to grips with the reality that this may be another boy which is a blessing.  I just can't seem to shake that intuition that its a girl.  I have no clue what to name it if its a boy, it might take me a few weeks after I find out.  A little girl on the other hand is another story. 

Almost 6 years ago Kevin and I picked out a boy and a girl name when I first got pregnant with Shaun.  Obviously Shaun was the boy name but the girl name was Kairi Lynn.  As the years have gone by and I kept producing boys with my hubby's help I kinda gave up on the name.  When I got pregnant with this little one I had a feel the name wasn't right at all and then I got a feeling about another name. 

Every time I have gotten pregnant I go through names I like but I always have a name that just stands out to me.  With each of the boys I knew exactly what their name was before they were born.  I can't shake this girl name and it can be used for a boy but I just have to have a little girl to name this.

I am hoping to honor my mother by using Barbara as the middle name but we will have to see.  I am going to cry my eyes out next Saturday when I finally find out.  I am so excited and hope this little one is healthy and come home right away not have to stay in the NICU like its older brother.