Venting....

Wow, is all I can say.  It is hard to imagine hearing and reading people going through a parent of theirs experiencing Alzheimers or Dementia, but living with it and experiencing it is so another story.  When I first started noticing my mother having it was about 8 years ago.  Who would have thought that by now we are starting to consider options I never have wanted to. 

My mother used to be so loving, friendly, and always ready to do whatever needed to be done.  That life and light she use to have is completely gone.  I have really closed myself off from it but it is becoming more inevitable that she is never going to come back and won't be here one day and  I am starting to lose my grip on everything.  Its no secret  I have always been a dad's girl and probably always will be but my mother was there for me when I couldn't turn to my dad.  I know she will be here a while longer and I know that she will get worse before its over.  I just have to do what I can and show her anyway I can that I love her before she is gone.